I wish may, I wish I might.

Well, here I am.  Another Christmas done in about 2o minutes, and another year soon to close behind me.

I am working on a poem that I will post later.  It is hard to share.  It is also long and annoying, I’m sure…

Things are not so great right now.  I have been very sad.  The holidays, well, they have been here.  I am kind of skating around the edges.  I miss my Dad.  I miss my loved ones who are not with me.  A lot of times, I seem to miss myself.  I just don’t know what happened and and how I lost me.  I am trying to find that person again.  I am just going through the phase where I feel like a shell of the person I used to be and trying to get that right again.  I just don’t feel like I’m doing anything right.  Or even close to it.

Sorry to be a downer.  I’m just glad to have a blog.  Not many will see this; the few that will are going to care enough to send me a message to keep my chin up.  I am trying, my peeps.  It is so hard and so, well, unfathomable to me to do so right now.  This Christmas has been so very hard and so sad.  I don’t know what is wrong.  There are just so many people that are gone from my life now that it is hard to cope.

I am grateful for what I have left.  I love my pets.  They are a blessing.  I sound like the crazy cat lady but who give a shit?

I am just sad. Sorry all.