Well, here I am. Another Christmas done in about 2o minutes, and another year soon to close behind me.
I am working on a poem that I will post later. It is hard to share. It is also long and annoying, I’m sure…
Things are not so great right now. I have been very sad. The holidays, well, they have been here. I am kind of skating around the edges. I miss my Dad. I miss my loved ones who are not with me. A lot of times, I seem to miss myself. I just don’t know what happened and and how I lost me. I am trying to find that person again. I am just going through the phase where I feel like a shell of the person I used to be and trying to get that right again. I just don’t feel like I’m doing anything right. Or even close to it.
Sorry to be a downer. I’m just glad to have a blog. Not many will see this; the few that will are going to care enough to send me a message to keep my chin up. I am trying, my peeps. It is so hard and so, well, unfathomable to me to do so right now. This Christmas has been so very hard and so sad. I don’t know what is wrong. There are just so many people that are gone from my life now that it is hard to cope.
I am grateful for what I have left. I love my pets. They are a blessing. I sound like the crazy cat lady but who give a shit?
I am just sad. Sorry all.