Posted by: Nice Melons | March 31, 2008

You dun stomped on my heart and you mashed that sucker flat!

“Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.”
His Holiness the Dalai Lama

So, have you ever had this happen to you?

Yeah, me too.   *Sigh*

I’ve wanted to write about this for quite a while now, but several aborted attempts led to discouragement – how could I possibly put something like this into words when the feelings almost defy description?  Well, after nearly 3 months of waffling, I’m getting off my butt and doing it. 

So, in case you can’t tell, I’m one of those WYSIWYG kind of people.  The good thing about me is that everything is pretty much out in the open –  I rarely have a hidden agenda unless it’s going to be fun for both of us – otherwise, why bother?  The bad thing about me is that everything is pretty much out in the open; you’ll always know where you stand with me, one way or another.  As a result, I guess, I tend take people at face value, which isn’t so good since many, many folks out there have their own agendas and not all of them are gonna be fun for me.  I guess we all do, one way or another, since we all have something that motivates us in this life.  Adulthood brought this wisdom of when to don the Teflon suit and not show others my soft underbelly, but I’ve still been burned repeatedly because I really just want to expect the best from people.  Grrrrr.

So… I learned to start protecting my heart.  For a long time, I did it the hard way… or simply used my personality… Oh wait,  that was the hard way. 😀

I think a lot of that protection comes from learning how to love, respect, and accept yourself – flaws and all.  Yeah yeah, it sounds cheesy, I know… but I really think this conscious recognition is a huge part in protecting and nurturing your innermost heart, your most private self.   Being grateful for your strengths when you’re in all your glory, and being compassionate with yourself when you’re at your worst.  It’s so much easier to protect your heart when you’re happier, because you are already there, knowhutimean?  You don’t have to rely on anyone else to make you happy – and when they do – damn!!!  It’s even better!  Cool!

Now, if this same person starts living underground, wearing weird headgear, wants you to get in a cage, looks crazed, and comes at you chanting “Kali MA!!!” with claws outstretched, I’d run… or kick their ass.  Heh.  😛

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